a few hours after making this site, trump announced he bombed iran. i cant even put into words how this feels, everyone i know is freaking out and discussing nonstop. i dont understand how every day manages to become worse and worse, any person that voted for that man is scum. this has happened before, that means this isnt the end, hope. i dont know what else to write on this, i will just leave it, im not gonna pretend like im extremely educated on these topics when im not.
on the other hand, i have been doing ok recently. i started a new medicine, its going well and i like it. i talk to my friends often despite not seeing them, they call me, which feels nice. i guess W (the chosen name censorship for now lol) has bought me something..? he asked the size of my bed and said i will get something in the mail in a couple days, im sure its gonna be a blanket with some ugly image on it. im betting on it being michael gira. i have been practicing bass frequently, im starting to use a pick. i think so far i am doing pretty well considering i have only been practicing with it a few weeks now, im pretty proud of it. i have also been practicing simple drum rudiments a little bit, i hope by the time i start lessons for it that i at least know something lol. im reading the brothers karamazov recently, i really love it so far. my favorite aspect of the book is alyoshsa, and how everyone always calls him as an angel, its so cute.
im not planning on adding new entries every single day, but i happened to receive a cd i ordered today so thats why im writing. its Leichenlinie by Genocide Organ, a recent favorite album of mine. i have been listening to it on repeat, im in a bit of a death industrial/power electronics phase recently.im excited to listen to it later, although i have some school work to finish TT anyway, right now im listening to Filth by Swans.... love swans of course. today i have also reached 200 new albums listened to this year !! its 4:20 rn :o i think im gonna play some bass before i eat. i'll probably add something here later.
im back, its about midnight. my friends are gonna plan something for my birthday, im really excited. i havent celebrated a birthday with friends since i was like 11 or 12 #lol.. i have been kinda nervous about celebrating it with friends instead of just my family, but i think it will be nice. typically i dread my birthday, obviously i dont enjoy getting older, i also hate being the center of attention and things like that, i always have to try really hard not to cry when they sing happy birthday. a mix of awkwardness and sadness. i finished some math work, i actually understand it pretty well. right now im listening to I Crawled by Swans (michael version :P), great song.. thats all i think
woahhhh big news, yesterday this person i used to be extremely close with when i was like 14 sent a follow request to my old twt acc, but then they deleted it after a few min D: but i was still wondering if i should try to reach out, they prob thought i was not on there anymore lol. anyway, i followed them and they followed me back !! and we had a short convo earlier this morning, it was great. i hadnt spoken to them in years, so this was really cool.. another cool thing, a couple of my friends are going to take me to see babymetal for my birthday !! huge... im also seeing primus shortly after that :3 a couple days ago i also reached 200 new albums this year. i have been practicing drum rolls all day, i keep doing it on my legs since im sitting in bed and now there are bruises on them lolol. making good progress in brothers karamazov, im around page 225 i believe. thats all for now i think, a song i am currently loving is Paraiso 1 by Ground Zero.